9/15/2009: I had a lot of time to think about this on my drive home from Nashua and I need to vent a little...

I am a fan of CHIKARA. I go to almost all the shows, even when I am not scheduled to wrestle. I sit and study the matches, from the merchandise table of all places, just to help out and support a company I believe in.

When I actually do get scheduled for a match, I don't get any real competition... and I can only wrestle Daizee Haze so many times! I have all the respect in the world for her and her abilities, but tecnica or ruda, she's in the same boat as me...it's like we're too good for what's out there. If we aren't against each other, it's basically like a night off anyway.

And I guess that would be fine - if I didn't know I was better than most of the locker room! I train down at the Wrestle Factory every single week, and I know I am in better condition than almost everyone...so why do I have to just sit around and watch from the sidelines?

I have done more in my career than almost any other female wrestler in the United States...you'd think Chikarason would give his left hand to have me on the card each month! I've grown sick of having fans come up to me and ask why I'm not wrestling! I should just start being honest and tell them the truth...there are no other girls at my level!

Am I being punished for being the best?
SDR


READ CROSSBONES' BLOG FROM 9/8/2009 HERE